Kim is sharing a deeply immersive mystical experience of direct union with God, prior to and beyond ordinary human identity, time, and creation. The account is a single, cohesive narrative centered on divine unity, love, and the origin of existence.
The core of these realizations is God as the uncreated, uncaused First Cause — a reality that exists before all creation, identity and form. Kim equates this First Cause with absolute love, not merely as an attribute of God but as God’s essential nature. This divine state precedes selfhood, matter, time and even the concept of being a separate individual.
Kim describes entering what she repeatedly calls the “womb of God.” This womb is not a physical place but a state of pre-creation fullness, containing all potential existence. Within it, there is no personal identity, no separation, no naming of things, and no subject-object distinction. She experiences total unity: everything that exists — trees, animals, stars, humans— is experienced as herself, yet without any sense of “I” or ego. There are only oneness, peace, silence, darkness and stillness; gradually giving rise to water, light, and then creation itself.
Two years later, Kim encountered the “Ancient of Days” (a biblical image of God) and Jesus Christ, both appearing as distinct forms yet understood as fully one and the same divine reality. The Ancient of Days appears to her as male and unmistakably God; Jesus appears as he was during his earthly life. Despite these different manifestations, they are known as a single unified divine presence. This reinforces that God, Christ, and the uncreated First Cause are not separate entities but different expressions of the same ultimate reality.
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Following the “womb of God” experience, is a separate but related mystical event in which Jesus brings Kim into His crucifixion. Rather than witnessing it as a historical past event, she experiences it as eternally present. She was taken through the crucifixion from multiple perspectives. First as humanity participating in the act of crucifying through violence and cruelty toward one another, then as a devoted lover of Christ filled with grief and longing and finally from within Christ himself.
From within Christ on the cross, Kim encounters immense suffering and sorrow, but simultaneously an indescribable depth of love and joy. At the very center of the crucifixion, she again is returned to the womb of God, the same pre-creation unity experienced before. This brought Kim to the realization that life is resting in the womb of God.
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The crucifixion is a cosmic event that restores creation to its divine origination. This realization dissolves all philosophical inquiry for her.
Ultimately, her account is less about doctrine or belief and more about direct experiential knowing — an encounter she finds so profound that language itself becomes insufficient to contain it.